Time to take a moment and reflect on my life... I guess life is pretty good right now. I don't know why I say "pretty" a lot. What I mean is, life is good. But there is always that uncertainty, sort of. I just want to be able to brace for whatever that may come my way, for better or worse. I know sometimes I am confused too as to how my brain works. Anyways, I haven't updated for awhile so this will be a long entry...
Definition of cheating:
So the other day, I was hanging out at this girl's house. She had a bunch of magazines, so I picked one up and started reading. Girl magazines are so dirty. Anyways, while I was perusing I encountered this article on the definition of cheating. The article in a gist gives out all these situations and surveys from the readers as to whether or not one is cheating or not. Example such as, is it cheating if: He was dirty dancing with a girl, sex-texting, got a lapdance at a stripclub, sleeping on the same bed with a girl etc. I know most of these are really obvious, but these situations got me thinking about all the other possibilities. Recently one of my friend broke up with her boyfriend because she danced with another guy. She then proceed to hangout with the same guy like almost every single day. Is that cheating? I mean the obvious answer is no, because they broke up. But isn't that kind of like emotionally cheating? I don't know the whole story so I am not going to judge. Just something I was thinking about while reading the article...
ETD POP.:
Speaking of cheating, I had my own unexpected experience at ETD POP this year. So, I guess I was taking care of this girl. We were both having fun, dancing was okay, massaging was okay, but all of the sudden she wanted to makeout with me and that was not okay. I stopped every single time, but I don't know how I feel should feel about it. Like, this is like the first time I experienced the "it just happened" dilemma. If you don't know what I am talking about, "it just happened" refers to the situation that happens in chick flicks all the time, when this girl really likes this guy, and he is seen accidently kissing with another girl? He tries to explain to the girl, but all he can come up with is "it just happened". I am single, so technically it is not really cheating. But I felt like I was cheating because my heart belongs to another girl. I know, guys are stupid. I should have never put myself in the situation in the first place. I mean nothing really happened and I was taking care of her, the whole situation could have been much worse...
But should I tell the girl I like what happened?! A part of me is really bothered by this, I don't know why. I really want to just tell her everything, but I am scared at the same time she might view me differently. Most certainly I am going to tell her in the future, that I am sure of though...
Extraneous:
While watching the NBA today, there was a short interview on Chris "Birdman" Andersen. He was banned from the NBA two years for using cocaine, meph and everything bad. But now he is sober and still flying high... that made me realized how much I have going for my life right now. I think it is time to for me to end a certain chapter of my life. Life is wonderful and I want to appreciate things just the way they are. Anyways, today I finally decided to check out Susan Boyle's performance to see what all the hype is about. All I can say is she did not disappoint, her voice was very alluring. I almost cried viewing the performance, there was something magical and enchanting about it. The song was very beautiful and her delivery was spot on... I don't care what other people say, she is 47 years old. I watched the clip knowing the performance was going to be good, but I never expected the performance to be such a delux delight...
