Detachment.

Detachment (noun)- the act of detaching, the condition of being detached, aloofness, as from worldly affairs or from the concerns of others. I don't know why, but sometimes I just fall head over hell for girls. Typo intended. Actually it is not that bad, but it is just like... It is especially hard when you have feelings for someone to like talk to them normally without like s-s-s-stuttering or sounding stupid. I feel like I am getting judged on the spot and everything I say is recorded to be analyzed later. I hate getting nervous. I can talk to girls normally when I have no feelings for them. I wish I can have more control over my emotions right now. I mean it is not wrong to have feelings for people right? I just feel like these feelings right now I don't need because they only hinder the progress of me getting to know her on a different level. So in a sense, I want to detach myself from liking her... so I can get to know her and like her more. I know this whole thing sounds kind of self-contradictory, but hey who said love is rational anyways?