"Every single cell in the human body replaces itself over a period of seven years. That means there's not even the smallest part of you now that was part of you seven years ago. Everything is changing."-The Raw Shark Texts, Steven Hall.
Question: How do you really know someone?
I don't think there is any possible way to know someone completely. I mean that is the beauty of being alive right? You never know when people will surprise you. So I started off this entry aiming at a discussion on couple relationships, but today I did something really stupid and it made me ponder why I did it. Basically I put salt on my wrist and pressed it really hard with ice, the result is a numb wrist and a scar. My friend told me it is a "rite of passage", I did it without any questions asked. Afterwards, it kind of makes me wonder... Why am I always down to do stupid shit with my friends?! Then I realized, it is because we share a tacit agreement. I trust them. I mean that is really all you can ask for in any relationship. No matter what I do, they will always have my back. No matter how long I haven't hangout with them, everytime I head back home I can kick it with them like it was yesterday. A friend really is just a long and close companion...
I finally figured this out. I want to be your friend, even if I am just a friend. I was too attached to the ideas and the outcomes. I guess sometimes I am just too stubborn to think I can free myself from these attachments along the string of consequences. I mean, how often do we make mistakes of thinking what we want is actually what we need? Sometimes the most selfless thing is also the most selfish thing. If there is anything to take away, I was being selfish. There are so many opportunities to get to know you more as a person if I just open myself up to the possibilities. I was too attached and fixated on what will happen in the end that I completely forgot what it means to be a friend... Hope I am not too late...
