Actually, this one is for you...

Maybe.

I am just in love with the idea of her...

Figure it out.

"Later that day I got to thinking about stock market and dating. Are they really that different? If you have a bad stock, you could lose your shirt. If you have a bad date, you could lose your will to live. And if the date is good, the stake gets even higher. After weathering all the ups and downs, you could one day find yourself with nothing. So, when it comes to finance and dating, I couldn't help but wonder. Why do we keep investing?"-Sex and the City

What distinguishes human beings from the rest of the animal kingdom is probably the fact we possess one of the most malleable minds. Though this is true, our minds are also easily susceptible to irrational coercions. Especially when it comes to relationships, how often do we make senseless choices? Why do we keep on investing? Like stockholders holding on to downward stocks, more often or not people hold on to doomed relationships. A lot of this has to do with the idea of loss aversion, that people have a tendency to prefer avoiding losses than acquiring gains. I mean who doesn't want to see things in rose-tinted glasses? The coulds, the ifs, the maybes. Letting something go is like admitting to a loss. But like that song by shinedown, "Sometimes goodbye is a second chance"... If there is anything I learned from watching the awesome movie (500) days of summer, it is that life goes on. There is no point in dwelling on something that makes you feel unhappy, a new start is always out there if you are open for new chances. Everything I type here is hypothetically speaking of course, like most things in life everything is easier said than done. Emotions always get in the way, no one is rational when they are in love. I don't even know why I am hanging on... Can you even hold onto something that isn't there?

Desperate Houseboy.

"This is your life and it's ending one minute at a time"-Fight Club.

The highlight of my day officially revolves around doing simple household chores. I never thought this day would come, at least not this early into my summer vacation. While I was almost ecstatic a week ago dreaming of a well-deserved break, like a dog letting off a leash into freedom, I soon realized my freedom was confined by my boredom. I am not a stranger to boredom. In fact, for as long as I remember... I loved doing absolutely nothing. I can almost compare my lifestyle to that of a pig: eat, bath, sleep, repeat. But now that I am older, I am beginning to cherish the transient value of time much more. I recall watching "The 650 Pound Virgin" and one of the questions I had while watching it was, how did he get that way in the first place? Well, Rome wasn't built in one day. But while his case might be extreme, who doesn't indulge in the joy of laziness once in awhile? I certainly am guilty of it. Laziness is like an addiction, the key is to stop the onset early before one falls into a downward spiral of abysmal slump... Anyways, to keep myself busy I bought two books to read for the summer. I should start a book-reading club haha. Besides that, I have decided to keep myself in shape with the one hundred pushups challenge. Also, I am going to volunteer at the local hospital depending on my friday interview. Got my TB test done today, I pray that it doesn't swell... that would suck lots...